This little munchkin is the most important thing to me, next to my husband and family. She is growing so fast. I am always a little worried about things and how they are going. OK, maybe I am not worried a little; but definitely am worried a lot. My husband always tells me that things will work out, but in the meantime I am so worried that I cannot really see his point.

We have my car registration due at the end of this month and boy is that expensive. I don't think we will ever buy a brand-new car again! I guess it is one of those things that has to be experienced at least once in a lifetime. So now, it's like been there, done that. Never again. No thanks! So true about the car losing a lot of value as you (happily) drive it off the car lot!

Then, my benefits got reduced by nearly $400 a month. I mean, yes I understand that whole mantra "its better than nothing," but "better than nothing" doesn't pay the bills, OK? I cannot imagine if I were on my own right now, with a baby and trying to make it. There is no way I could even make it without a child right now on unemployment! Do they seriously think people can pay their rent, food, groceries, utilities, etc. with $700 a month? SERIOUSLY??!

I am venting here and it is what it is. I am sure some of you are like, "Well, why don't you just get a job?!" Yes. That is true. I am looking for a job. But, I also have a full time mommy-to-my-baby job. So, in essence, I am looking for a second job that actually pays me. There really isn't anything out there. And this is no lie. Las Vegas has the highest unemployment rate in the Nation right now. We are sitting at a hefty 14.5%! Are you kidding me? Some of the industries I have worked in are the two most affected by it,too. Construction and hospitality. So, you tell me where to find and keep a job.

That is the rant for the day. I am still adjusting to life with a baby. It is a complete 360 from what I was doing before. All of these changes are no fun for me, but I have no choice but to adapt. I enjoy being a mom. At the same time, I really wish people would have told me more about being a mom and the adjustments it would take; instead of the "Oh, you're having a little girl?! How exciting! You will love being a mom!" And the, "Just wait... it will be the most wonderful experience of your life!"

How about telling people the truth when they are pregnant? In addition to all those "wonderful" little things.... what about the: "You will feel like a servant to your child" or, " You will wash more  bottles than you care to remember" or, " you will worry 24/7 about your little one and how things will be in the future" or, "you will never truly have 'me time' again." That's what I wanted to know when I was asking all the moms out there during my pregnancy. I guess they thought they would save that lovely surprise for me to find out on my own.

The one thing I wished I was really given a heads up about is the loneliness of being a SAHM. I know there are mom's groups out there, etc., but they only meet so often.

Well, I am sure no one is reading this, so basically this is a very public way to vent.